Future

I am afraid of the future. I can't imagine surviving to an old age. I can't imagine marrying. I can't imagine having children. I fear this world, and I fear my ability to bring life into this world. How could I bring a child into a world like this? A world I despise so deeply. I don't know who I am here, how allow myself to bring anything, anyone to live in a world I can not stand. Too much self hate, too much pain is in this world. I am so scared of the future, everything that has not happened yet, I fear surviving.

-Ree